Dear Lord,
Today I seek your forgiveness for a murder which i did. A murder which I did in this broad day light. I seek your forgiveness for that gory blood bath..! I confess that I murdered my soul.!!! It was all its fault. It didn't deserved living here.
It just couldn't be selfish which everyone forced it to be...!
It just couldn't be manipulative which everyone expected it to be...!
It just couldn't be concealing which everyone thought it should be...!
It faced a lot of torture for things which it was required to do. How dare it oppose the things?
I just wanted to give it its final punishment and to be frank simply deserved it. I served the purpose of an executioner and relieved it from its so called chain of expectation and deliverance..! I enacted the role of a leader of these people and murdered it. I have no regrets but i still regret it. I took away life from a soul but i'm happy because I brought its misery to an end. An end which was not destined but an end that was shown so as to avoid an unfateful end...

Today I seek your forgiveness for this crime of mine. Please forgive me and give rest to my soul.
Its not that my soul didnt deserve this world but its just that this world didnt deserve my soul. This world made me a murdere and I'm getting away with a murder...!!

Amen.
A soul less creatur carrying his dead soul on his shoulder seeking your forgiveness and searching a place to bury the dead.

Paradox of life...

When we're young kids we've got our parents to live for so no time to die...
When we are in adulthoon again no time to die coz that's supposedly the time to live...
By the time we are mature again no time to die coz then we again have a family to live for...
And when comes the time to die there comes a thought to live...!!

Is that a paradox or an irony?
That's upto you to decide.. I showed the mirror - my job is done!

Some one liners...

I fake my happiness so that they don't see the tears I cry...

You say you see things but I say you see nothing...

I need you because I want you because I don't know who I am...

There are 2 roads to walk down and one road to choose...

Resilliant by force not by choice...

The illusion of trust is more painful than reality of distrust...



PS: Some of these are not mine but still i've kept them in my blog as I felt they've touched me at some point of time.

....YES ALTHOUGH....

Yes i am alone although i have people around me whom i call as my friends...
Yes i am happy although what i call the sadness is what fills the aura around me...
Yes i feel like laughing although tears are just ready to trickle down...
Yes i feel so complete so full although its the emptiness that is filling me all around...
Yes i feel like learning and thinking of something new although old thoughts still continue to haunt me...
Yes i feel like taking rest and enjoying although just the start of the off puts me back onto the highway for hell...
Yes i feel like writing although when i feel so i am short at words...
Yes i feel like saying YES although NO is all i can hear from within...
Yes i can understands the biggest of complexities although the simplest of questions freak me out...

No moments can be sweeter than what you gave to me today..
No reality can be beautiful than what we shared today. . . . . .

The Reason

you know now i have found the reason for my dual feeling of sadness and the hapiness together...
Happy coz haziness of things finally cleared out and sad coz they were not in my favor but it doesn't matters. In this life you win some and you loose some..!
But i'm still a game for all the good things of life coz life is one and live it KING SIZE!!!

Here i am. . .

In this life you win some you loose some. I have lost so much that there is nothing more left to loose. The positive of this is its time for me to win...
So guys n gals beware, i'm back coz its my time now and the best is yet to come
Coz you win some and you loose some...!!