Towards the end..

Some words go straight through the heart..
Some houses stand while some fall like a pack of cards..
Love is a form of modern art..
Some get it while some blow it away like a free fart..!!

I got to know what it feels..
Life stood up and then it started to reel..
With a heart soft as a cotton it pretended to be of a steel..
For time flew by but yet I got to know how it feels..!!

Life comes and goes by as a journey..
You got to live it like no tomorrow and not fight for it hiring an attorney..
Pack your bags, tie your boots,,
Save your bushes, pack your roots,,
Life is out there, for you its calling..
Fly away and don't look back even if the sky comes falling..!!

What's gone is gone..
You can not prove it right or even wrong,,
Stand tall, wear it all,,
Walk that long mile, wearing that awesome smile..
There will come that curve and also that bend..
Fear not coz I will see you after this ends..!!

And they bled..

For the tears that trickled down my eyes..
As I sit remembering those golden moments
When seeing you laugh was the every bit of the life in that moment..
When holding your hand was the nirvana of life
When watching your innocense was desired than this pain worse than of a knife..
Life has taken its twists, turned left and right and here I am
counting the tears that trickled down my eyes..

Life was good when you came into it..
Life was better when it fell for you..
Life was the best when it lived for you..
and here I am counting memories of the time that has gone by
coz its the tears that have trickled down my eyes..

There were arguments and there were fights,
There was love and the future of which we had clear sight..
There were sacrifices and the moments of understandings,
There were long ballads and the those moments of short singing..
Going forth let alone be the hugs and kisses there won't be any hello-hi,
coz its the tears that have trickled down my eyes..

There was this dying relation and feelings that were choking,
We were resetting and it will settle down was what we were hoping..
You missed it and I messed it,
You moved and I totally walked over it..
And as you say at times its better let it go with a smile,
coz its the tears that have trickled down my eyes..

The drift..

As time goes on and we grow apart we feel lame but yet we grow smart..

Here we are at the edge of the world,

at the edge of a civilization,

witnessing the end of an era..

We look back,

for whatever it was,

for whatever it will be,

for every penny of its worth of the Que Sera Sera..

As we ponder thinking how it was so good,

things started to change,

feelings became hard and soft became that hard wood..

Time will smile,

time will cry,

time will come,

time will go..

The only thing that shall remain moving will be this lifeless yet pretentious humane show..!!

Bravery - What you see and what I saw!

Brave is not the one who has no fears but the one who sees his fear up front and still smiles to the core..

Brave is not the one who can see profanity right to your face but the one who can screw you with words and no one ever realizes but for him..

Brave is not the one who laughs when all laugh but the one who even laughs when he wants to..

Brave is not the one who would be always standing tall but the one who at times would sit down to ensure you still stand tall..

Brave is not the one who will stand against the flow of river thinking to make it stop but the one who would let it flow and admire its beauty with another stream trickling down..

Brave is not the one who would always speak out without fear but the one who would prefer to stay silent and let the thoughts do the talking..

Brave is not the one who would never get defeated but the one who would work on to make your victory count..

Brave is not the one who is actually brave but the one who is weak and accepts it coz he ain't afraid of being trodden upon...

Baadal barsa aur mann bawra tarsa!!

aaj baadal kuchh aisa barsa,

aankhon se paani behne ko tarsa..

Mann se kuchh nikle is baat ko hua tha ek arsa,

dil mera reh gaya tha akela sa..

Aankhon main ek sailaab sa bhar gaya tha,

aur aaj wo is baarish main nikalne ko utsuk sa tha..

Har samay raha hai mann ko behalane ka prayatan sa,

par aaj wo bawla na maane kuchh bhi aaisa..

Puchha usse maine ke kyon hai tu aisa,

to bola main tha nahi ho gaya hoon aisa..

Dard roka hai sab se chhupa kar,

Dikhayi hai hasi chahe raha ho kitna bhi ro kar,

dekh kar uski aisi vyatha,

dil ke pass kuchh nahi bolne ko tha..

Dil se niklai thodi si hasi,

dekh kar aankhen samajh gayi ke us main bhi wohi tanhai hai basi..

na jaane kab se tha wo bhi tanha,

par dikha wo hamesha sab ke sang tha..

Aaj baadal kuchh aisa barsa,

ke ab aankhon ke saath dil bhi rone ko tha tarsa..!

But I had a thought

Thought i would be never back with the same pen again but here I am…
Thought i would be never back at the same circle again but here I am…
Thought the dam was completely sealed but here are a few re-surfacing cracks…
Thought the goose bumps from the less known path were a goner but here they are…
Thought that it was just a rough patch and here i see myself on the path made of that patch…
Thought the days would be at least a little fun but here they are back haunting me again…
Thought the thoughts are gone but how could i forget that they are mine to stay…
Thought the story of leaving the sick horse behind was history but here is history back as present…
Thought that life was so unfair to me but then I had a thought…

I saw an egg and thought does the life breeding inside knows will it ever materialize, but once alive the chicken never lets it go because it got what I thought was so unfair with me…

I saw a tree and thought does it know how long it is gonna last? Someone may pluck its fruits, cut its branches or may even burn it down but still it enjoys each and every swish that it can get of the fresh air…

I saw a phoenix, it burns yet it lives to the fullest, dies and again is up to live again coz it values the life it’s got…

I saw a kid and thought does he know how much troubles he may have to face in the life? Life may be troublesome but still he lives each and every moment that comes his way…

I saw myself, there was a kid inside me who was dying to live for the today but I was making it to live for tomorrow…

No I don’t want to be a killer of a child
I killed my soul, blamed my body to make the matter mild…

The child has to grow, it’s my soul, it’s my phoenix,
I will not let it die for thinking it to be a jinx…

My soul my child will stay alive,
It will survive as it chose to revive.

To make my soul grow let it live will be my correction,
That will be my repentance my resurrection.

Where am i going...

I was sitting last evening moving speedily, my mind was pondering the bike is moving but where am i going?
I saw the road and it was stationary, people were moving, I was moving, mind had its destination but i didn't knew where am I going...
I sat for a while, closed my eyes, my mind raced to fathom the far away distances but my body was stationary because i didn't knew where i was going...
Reached home, completed my work, lied down for a while and then my mind raced but this time for my body to find an answer for why it doesn't knows where am i going...
Got up this morning and got ready for office, i was going to the office, but still i didn't knew where i am going...
I got hold of the wind rushing by my side and asked it, is this the path where i wish to go? It didn't answer but rushed away even faster.
I asked the dark clouds shadowed over the sky, is this where i wanted to go? Is this what i dreamt to be? Is this what I was passionate for? The clouds too didn't say anything but poured down on me. I couldn't decode the message sent that whether those were the tears of joy that i realized that I am yet to find where I wish to go or were those the tears of sadness that i didn't knew where am I going...
I still don't know where I am going. But do you?
Are you going on the path you wanted to?