But I had a thought

Thought i would be never back with the same pen again but here I am…
Thought i would be never back at the same circle again but here I am…
Thought the dam was completely sealed but here are a few re-surfacing cracks…
Thought the goose bumps from the less known path were a goner but here they are…
Thought that it was just a rough patch and here i see myself on the path made of that patch…
Thought the days would be at least a little fun but here they are back haunting me again…
Thought the thoughts are gone but how could i forget that they are mine to stay…
Thought the story of leaving the sick horse behind was history but here is history back as present…
Thought that life was so unfair to me but then I had a thought…

I saw an egg and thought does the life breeding inside knows will it ever materialize, but once alive the chicken never lets it go because it got what I thought was so unfair with me…

I saw a tree and thought does it know how long it is gonna last? Someone may pluck its fruits, cut its branches or may even burn it down but still it enjoys each and every swish that it can get of the fresh air…

I saw a phoenix, it burns yet it lives to the fullest, dies and again is up to live again coz it values the life it’s got…

I saw a kid and thought does he know how much troubles he may have to face in the life? Life may be troublesome but still he lives each and every moment that comes his way…

I saw myself, there was a kid inside me who was dying to live for the today but I was making it to live for tomorrow…

No I don’t want to be a killer of a child
I killed my soul, blamed my body to make the matter mild…

The child has to grow, it’s my soul, it’s my phoenix,
I will not let it die for thinking it to be a jinx…

My soul my child will stay alive,
It will survive as it chose to revive.

To make my soul grow let it live will be my correction,
That will be my repentance my resurrection.

Where am i going...

I was sitting last evening moving speedily, my mind was pondering the bike is moving but where am i going?
I saw the road and it was stationary, people were moving, I was moving, mind had its destination but i didn't knew where am I going...
I sat for a while, closed my eyes, my mind raced to fathom the far away distances but my body was stationary because i didn't knew where i was going...
Reached home, completed my work, lied down for a while and then my mind raced but this time for my body to find an answer for why it doesn't knows where am i going...
Got up this morning and got ready for office, i was going to the office, but still i didn't knew where i am going...
I got hold of the wind rushing by my side and asked it, is this the path where i wish to go? It didn't answer but rushed away even faster.
I asked the dark clouds shadowed over the sky, is this where i wanted to go? Is this what i dreamt to be? Is this what I was passionate for? The clouds too didn't say anything but poured down on me. I couldn't decode the message sent that whether those were the tears of joy that i realized that I am yet to find where I wish to go or were those the tears of sadness that i didn't knew where am I going...
I still don't know where I am going. But do you?
Are you going on the path you wanted to?